curiousaboutbfamg
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Hi,
Have been seeing a guy for a little while now and when I say he is amazing, I am not exaggerating even slightly. With that said, there are a few things that keep coming up and causing problems between us. On further inspection I came to the conclusion that he may possibly have high functioning Aspergers. As this is not a subject I am an expert on, but would like to understand him more, I decided to come to those who have experienced some of these characteristics to see if I am barking up the wrong tree (for want of a better phrase). I will try to summarise a few of the things I have noticed about his character/responses to things.
I am just wondering about how to approach this. To make it clear, the guy is amazing and this absolutely makes no difference to how I feel about him. I would just like to understand him better and be able to behave in a way that doesn’t make him feel overwhelmed, if it is the case that he is autistic.
I would also like to know whether anyone knows if it is a good idea to mention my concerns to him. We have never discussed autism before, however I feel like I would be able to communicate with him better if we could discuss things in the context of autism, as he often heavily blames himself for these faults in communication etc. I strongly feel that the faults are not ones of character or intention, but something he cannot help- I would just need confirmation of this. I think that if he understood what was going on and received diagnosis, he would be able to be freed from this guilt and we could move forwards with our relationship. I would find it a lot easier to work through some of these issues if I knew he couldn’t help them (in fact I would just take them as part of him and focus on the good points), rather than there being the sneaking suspicion that he is just being awkward deliberately. I cannot help this, and do try to rationalise it, but the thoughts can be intrusive. On the whole I would just like some advice as to how to approach this subject in the best way, if at all.
Thank you
Have been seeing a guy for a little while now and when I say he is amazing, I am not exaggerating even slightly. With that said, there are a few things that keep coming up and causing problems between us. On further inspection I came to the conclusion that he may possibly have high functioning Aspergers. As this is not a subject I am an expert on, but would like to understand him more, I decided to come to those who have experienced some of these characteristics to see if I am barking up the wrong tree (for want of a better phrase). I will try to summarise a few of the things I have noticed about his character/responses to things.
- He exhibits some kind of ritualistic behaviour. Eg. having to eat things in a certain way every time he eats (a piece of every variety of food on his plate has to be on his fork at once).
- When a situation is over emotionally charged, he experiences an almost ‘shutting down’; from my point of view it is very hard to get him to speak and he has expressed an almost ‘flood of thoughts’ that were too much for him to handle. In this situation, he struggles so much that he cannot physically deal with the problem at hand until he has had some time alone to wind down. Cannot overstate enough that it isn’t like he doesn’t care, more like he is a deer in the headlights and just cannot force the words out of his mouth.
- This links to the above, but he needs time to himself sometimes for no particular reason other than he is in a bit of a ‘funny’ mood. He cannot just ‘make up’ after an argument or get over it in the traditional sense.
- He is very sensitive to criticism. If I mention that there is something he has done to annoy/frustrate me, he will become extremely upset and think he ‘cannot do anything right’, or that he isn't good enough for me.
- Again linked to the above, but he often becomes extremely upset and needs time to himself over one of my small frustrations- something that I felt I needed to mention but that wasn’t MUCH of a big deal to me at the time, or enough to warrant a big argument. Feel like his upset is often disproportionate to the disagreement itself (although I know he can’t help this and do not berate him for it).
- When communicating via text, he is very sensitive to changes in tone or even the emojis that I use. Eg. If I use too many question marks after a question (just an annoying habit I have), he will interpret it as an angry and accusatory question. He also over analyses why I say certain things
- He seems to like routine- he is unlikely to change plans or make spontaneous plans with me, to the point where if I ask him to plan something he will freeze up for hours (this happened in the beginning before I suspected any of this).. and I end up instructing him anyway. Seems to prefer being told what to do rather than having to decide; again, not seeming like ‘standard lazy male’ syndrome.
- Linked to initiation of plans- he is very into sexual activity when I initiate and is very affectionate on the whole actually. However I cannot think of a single occasion where he has initiated sexual contact himself; when I have asked him why, he tells me he doesn’t know how to or can’t be sure whether I want it (even though, to me, I am pretty much putting out every single signal other than saying ‘I want to have sex with you).
- He doesn’t seem to feel the need to say ‘I love you’ on a regular basis, or need the reassurance from me- if anything, he seems to find it to be more than is required and maybe a bit uncomfortable. Again, I asked for a reason for this and he said ‘he doesn’t like to at random’ and would ‘prefer to just show it instead’. Read that this is typical of those with Apergers as the love is assumed, and they don’t see the need to keep going on and on about it
- He is evidently highly thoughtful, but seems to have issues translating these emotions. Eg. he is always displaying acts of affection, has made a point for me to meet his friends/family, frequently discusses the future with me in it.. however if I were to say to him (as it is FAIRLY early on) ‘where do you see this going in the future’, he would freeze up. I asked him why this is and again, he said he finds it difficult to process these new emotions; he even once said in an unrelated conversation that he ‘doesn’t feel like he knows how to love someone properly’. Again, this is not a standard male avoidance of commitment type thing like I suspected initially- we are committed, he would just struggle to discuss these things.
- If I am upset, often arguments are caused because he will do nothing rather than trying to comfort me/make the situation better. He will just become upset himself and shut down/ignore the situation. I have asked him about this after he has cooled down and he just says ‘I’m sorry, I just don’t know what to do’. I feel like sometimes from my point of view I have made it blatantly obvious that I want a cuddle, but he has never done that without me telling him to- once I do, he is very affectionate and apologetic and loving towards me.
- It has come up in deeper conversations that there a fair few things about his past that I do not know. Obviously, this is normal and there are some things that I would not choose to tell anyone, not even a romantic partner. However, these things are things that ‘impact who he is as a person’ (his words not mine), so I once strongly suggested he should let me in on them. He is VERY stubborn with regards to this, saying that he wishes he could tell me, but he ‘can’t’. It is almost like he has already decided what he is comfortable sharing and, no matter how much it seems to matter to me, wont deviate from that.
- He has also quite matter of fact, some would say pessimistic, about relationships on the whole. This does not come across like he doesn’t want one, more that he is acutely aware that it more than likely will eventually come to an end. When talking about previous relationships, he has mentioned that everything seems to go well and then they ‘notice’ something and leave; he has never eluded to what this ‘something’ they notice is however I suspect he also thinks he may be on the spectrum/knows something is not quite right.
I am just wondering about how to approach this. To make it clear, the guy is amazing and this absolutely makes no difference to how I feel about him. I would just like to understand him better and be able to behave in a way that doesn’t make him feel overwhelmed, if it is the case that he is autistic.
I would also like to know whether anyone knows if it is a good idea to mention my concerns to him. We have never discussed autism before, however I feel like I would be able to communicate with him better if we could discuss things in the context of autism, as he often heavily blames himself for these faults in communication etc. I strongly feel that the faults are not ones of character or intention, but something he cannot help- I would just need confirmation of this. I think that if he understood what was going on and received diagnosis, he would be able to be freed from this guilt and we could move forwards with our relationship. I would find it a lot easier to work through some of these issues if I knew he couldn’t help them (in fact I would just take them as part of him and focus on the good points), rather than there being the sneaking suspicion that he is just being awkward deliberately. I cannot help this, and do try to rationalise it, but the thoughts can be intrusive. On the whole I would just like some advice as to how to approach this subject in the best way, if at all.
Thank you