I cannot relate to those who are religious, because for my I need something tangible. Pure faith alone in a being as complicated as God is curious to me; I do not understand how he can be relentlessly all-loving yet his followers must fear his wrath? That doesn't sound like a healthy relationship to me. This last point may be harsh, but: if a human being did some things that Old Testament God did, they'd be institutionalized. I cannot endorse a god expects to be praised while testing one's faith (Job, for example) or manipulating one to do something heinous (Abraham sacrificing his son, for example). If someone did that in a romantic relationship, they'd be labeled as 'toxic.'
In similar, I can understand how passionate some of us are in our beliefs and fixations. Religion is for some what Baroque music is for me. But one the whole I don't understand what it's like to 'feel the presence' of a holy spirit because...well, isn't it all in one's head? An imagination? That being said, most of religious consolation can be substituted with modern psychology.
Something else I wonder is this: why wouldn't all churches just accept folks as they are, no matter what, because that's how God made them?
I feel bad about some of what I've written because I don't want to discourage you from your faith or dissuade you from being involved with what makes you happy. I just..well, hope for a discussion of sorts to see from your point of view.