Minors, kids, teenagers, I couldn't deal with them when I was one and now they just straight freak me out, other than my own and him making friends is a huge complex for me that I have no idea how I'm going to deal... I don't want him to be held back or notice how much I just do not like and want to avoid all other kids and minors. Really anybody still living with their parents makes me run... 19, 20, 21 year olds, still no good, I'm always afraid I'm going to do or say something they deam as inappropriate... when I was 18-21 I had people's parents threaten to have to cops after me...
Large bodies of water, no I can't do it freak me out, boats=no. A cruise is out of the question... a cruise would be similar to being incarcerated, but on water, just no...
And I'm just constantly afraid of all other people, they're always trying to get something over on you, wanting somebody to mess with, laugh at. I wish I was better at completely blocking out people around me when I have to be around people...
Driving is a nightmare, I can only last a few minutes at a time, no interstate, I have to have the option of pulling into a parking lot and stopping at any given moment... I have such a worse time with it than I did when I was a newer driver. Though I've never been in an accident personally, I've had people pull over next to me to scream at me tell me I should never be driving. They follow me into parking lots to flick me off, tell me what a stupid nasty ***** I am. People blame me for causing everybody else's accidents. I've been stuck out frozen, not even able to cry, move, drive for extended periods of time because of people. Then if cops see me, I've never been around cops without getting searched. They threaten to take me right to the hospital to get me drug tested... they think I look like I'm on meth and herion whenever I don't have all my stage make up on and I'm stressed out... being in a car with somebody with Marijuana in then just is too much for me because I don't care how perfect you are, if a cop sees me we will be searched. I'm constantly fighting with my kids dad about this because he wants to have pot on him at all times and I'm just like geez, can't we just wait? He's eased up a bit and we're clean much more now but he's made sure I know how much he despises me for it and drives like a maniac to prove some kind of a point, doing 100mph in a 45-55 zone, flying around corners, over curbs and speed bumps...
basically all things involving, cars, roads, trucks, driving, cops, strangers, and large bodies of water just freak me out.
Oh and dogs, I hate dogs, they are mean, they bite, they **** right in front of you like they're laughing at you, don't even try to hide it. When I try to go walking in the neighborhood it's so bad anymore several dogs will come running and barking at you and chase you back inside... I wish leash laws would actually be informed, I've been considering carry a taser for these horrible animals, tase them once hopefully they'll remember to just stay away from me and my kid. My kid was attacked 2x last summer, thankfully his dad was there one time to scare the dog away the other time he managed to quickly climb a tree while this big, stupid dog is barking and jumping at him...
There's only 2 major things I'm scared of, Snakes and cold Showers, I hate Showers in general though, would much rather have a Bath if possible.
All I take is baths!
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