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So, I dated this guy for 2 years. At the beginning, I felt something was a little different about him, but I didn't care, because he was so hot, smart and charming. In fact, he is totally a genius type. Long story short, he turned out to be a super independent man and almost workaholic. He was always too busy to see me and we saw each other only once a month and had to skip all the fun events, etc, too, but insisted that he misses me very much. Yes he IS a busy man, but it got to the point where I started doubting his reasoning.
I am not going to list everything that made me think he might be on the spectrum, but I did so much searches, even talked with a professional in the field, and I am pretty sure he is. He had signs of both Aspergers and ADHD. He didn't seem to know, or maybe he did know because once he told me he feels he was different from others, but never told me he was on the spectrum. He actually took the fact that he is different in a positive way, which is great, but sometimes it gave me troubles, because he wouldn't admit his differences (traits) were giving me headaches because of the fact he took them too positive.
So, after about a year, my doubt (that he might be on the spectrum) came up to me. I still liked him and wanted to find out how we can get along better.
I think it is fine to keep some distance at the beginning stage of dating, but after a few month, the couple starts to feel closer. With him, the distance never got closer as the time went by. He wouldn't let me get closer emotionally. Contradictorily (at least to me), he really wanted me to stay. I knew that he needed a lot of space, so I gave him a lot of space. I even usually waited until he messaged me. I stopped saying I wanted to see him until he asked. After all my effort not to interfere with his space, I started to feel very lonely and tired of wanting more. I got really frustrated, and wrote him a letter. I loved him very much but needed him to let me get closer and if that's not possible, I couldn't take it anymore. Long story short again, after he contemplated for a long time, he told me to move on.
Well, I know that I should move on. I know he did not love me enough to take me in. I know I couldn't take it anymore. It's been over half year but I still keep thinking about him. If I knew he was on the spectrum from the beginning, I could have avoided getting hurt again and again, and could have understood him better.
Was there any possibility I missed to have him closer to me? I know isolation is one of the possible traits of people on the spectrum, but if you find someone you love, is it something you can change? Or is it just how he is and will be?
If there was nothing I could have done, please give me any advice for me to move on. Thank you.
So, I dated this guy for 2 years. At the beginning, I felt something was a little different about him, but I didn't care, because he was so hot, smart and charming. In fact, he is totally a genius type. Long story short, he turned out to be a super independent man and almost workaholic. He was always too busy to see me and we saw each other only once a month and had to skip all the fun events, etc, too, but insisted that he misses me very much. Yes he IS a busy man, but it got to the point where I started doubting his reasoning.
I am not going to list everything that made me think he might be on the spectrum, but I did so much searches, even talked with a professional in the field, and I am pretty sure he is. He had signs of both Aspergers and ADHD. He didn't seem to know, or maybe he did know because once he told me he feels he was different from others, but never told me he was on the spectrum. He actually took the fact that he is different in a positive way, which is great, but sometimes it gave me troubles, because he wouldn't admit his differences (traits) were giving me headaches because of the fact he took them too positive.
So, after about a year, my doubt (that he might be on the spectrum) came up to me. I still liked him and wanted to find out how we can get along better.
I think it is fine to keep some distance at the beginning stage of dating, but after a few month, the couple starts to feel closer. With him, the distance never got closer as the time went by. He wouldn't let me get closer emotionally. Contradictorily (at least to me), he really wanted me to stay. I knew that he needed a lot of space, so I gave him a lot of space. I even usually waited until he messaged me. I stopped saying I wanted to see him until he asked. After all my effort not to interfere with his space, I started to feel very lonely and tired of wanting more. I got really frustrated, and wrote him a letter. I loved him very much but needed him to let me get closer and if that's not possible, I couldn't take it anymore. Long story short again, after he contemplated for a long time, he told me to move on.
Well, I know that I should move on. I know he did not love me enough to take me in. I know I couldn't take it anymore. It's been over half year but I still keep thinking about him. If I knew he was on the spectrum from the beginning, I could have avoided getting hurt again and again, and could have understood him better.
Was there any possibility I missed to have him closer to me? I know isolation is one of the possible traits of people on the spectrum, but if you find someone you love, is it something you can change? Or is it just how he is and will be?
If there was nothing I could have done, please give me any advice for me to move on. Thank you.