This kinda ties in with my post about me needing to be more submissive...Probably my most serious problem right now is I have anger issues that border on hellatious and god-awful. I went from kid screaming and kicking the ground in a time out spot to a four armed, masochistic demiurge of destruction in the span of only two years. I've been known to attack my stepfather who frequently only makes my anger worse thanks to his belief in "disciplinary negative reinforcement", which of course results in me crawling away with a black eye, bloody face, swollen cheeks or all three, and at one point what was supposed to be a slightly overpowered love tap turned into a faceblast which resulted in my front right tooth escaping my mouth (though he formally apologized for this and made up for it later on).
Getting back to the issue, my rage is getting worse and my breaking points are getting thinner! Allow me to explain the formula of how my anger issues work in my case:
The level of tolerance I have for something is indicated by what i call a "Saiyan Meter" in my mind. (If you've watched Dragon Ball Z before you'll understand what I mean.) As things continue to annoy and aggravate me, my "power level" starts to go up, and I've classified seven different power levels to indicate how angry I am:
Kaioken: Please stop. I'm not in a good mood.
Kaioken x2: Hey! I said knock it off!
Kaioken x3: Are you braindead? F###ING STOP!
Super Saiyan: Look what you did to me!
SSJ2: You want a piece of this, you son of a *****?! I will snap your ass in two!
Super Saiyan God: NOW YOU'RE GOING TO PAY FOR WHAT YOU DID!
Broly: RUN.
So yeah. I know, weird way to,put it, but thats the easiest way I can think of. Now for a list of some examples that make me angry:
Gaslighting: So you're really going to make someone else look good and make me look like the villain? Wow.
Condescending: You don't care? I'm using excuses? That's not the whole story? Screw you!
Shutdown: Hey! I'm talking to you! HEY ASSHOLE, I'M TALKING TO YOU!
Non-belief: I ****ing know what I saw, I'm telling you the truth!
Button-pushing: I tOlD yOu To StOp DiDn't I?!
Mimickers/Mockery: I do NOT ****ing sound like that.
Reasonless provocation: It was a mistake to (do X) to me just cause you feel like it...!
Help me...before I go to jail for this...
Getting back to the issue, my rage is getting worse and my breaking points are getting thinner! Allow me to explain the formula of how my anger issues work in my case:
The level of tolerance I have for something is indicated by what i call a "Saiyan Meter" in my mind. (If you've watched Dragon Ball Z before you'll understand what I mean.) As things continue to annoy and aggravate me, my "power level" starts to go up, and I've classified seven different power levels to indicate how angry I am:
Kaioken: Please stop. I'm not in a good mood.
Kaioken x2: Hey! I said knock it off!
Kaioken x3: Are you braindead? F###ING STOP!
Super Saiyan: Look what you did to me!
SSJ2: You want a piece of this, you son of a *****?! I will snap your ass in two!
Super Saiyan God: NOW YOU'RE GOING TO PAY FOR WHAT YOU DID!
Broly: RUN.
So yeah. I know, weird way to,put it, but thats the easiest way I can think of. Now for a list of some examples that make me angry:
Gaslighting: So you're really going to make someone else look good and make me look like the villain? Wow.
Condescending: You don't care? I'm using excuses? That's not the whole story? Screw you!
Shutdown: Hey! I'm talking to you! HEY ASSHOLE, I'M TALKING TO YOU!
Non-belief: I ****ing know what I saw, I'm telling you the truth!
Button-pushing: I tOlD yOu To StOp DiDn't I?!
Mimickers/Mockery: I do NOT ****ing sound like that.
Reasonless provocation: It was a mistake to (do X) to me just cause you feel like it...!
Help me...before I go to jail for this...