crisscross
Aspie traits but no aspie
Dear community,
Recently I became aquainted with a man in his mid thirties, appearing quite normal, maybe behaving a little bit awkward. We usually meet in a business context and regularly work together two hours face-to-face, with no other people in the room.
He used to be very nervous when we were together but during our work the nervousness eased every time. But the next time we met he was nervous again. Not realizing that he could be an aspie I thought the nervousness could be because he liked me as a woman. It happens that I attract men although i do not intend that.
He is a handsome and smart guy and I kind of developed a pretty huge crush on him. The feeling went stronger every time I met him. We had pretty much eye contact together and smiled or laughed very often. So we had a really pleasant time together. After a few meetings I decided to ask him to meet me privately. I suggested to visit a museum together.
The moment I asked him he seemed startled, became nervous and uncomfortable. I sensed that he felt not longer good again. But we made an appointment, met at the museum and had two drinks afterwards. During the afternoon I realized that he didn't ask questions about me and my background. I had to do most of the conversation and the topic finding. He answered my questions, but made almost no approach to keep the conversation running further.
I felt not good at this day (headache) and missed some opportunities to deepen interesting topics with further questions. Despite this there were some beautiful moments, I felt we had somehow the same wavelength. But in the end his "not making much conversation" destroyed my confidence and the next day my feelings for him were terribly confused and desperated.
Still not realizing he could have aspergers I wrote him a message that I like him very much, have strong emotions for him and think a lot of him. To make things worse, I told him that I am in a relationship and therefore are confused about everything.
I knew at this moment that the message was wrong but I couldn't help myself with something different. I asked him for his feelings, telling him that I only pretended to have no romantic interest in him as I stated that I was looking for an approach to friendship. He answered that there were no romantic interest on his part. He apologized to have caused such distress to me and didn't intend to make me feel ill at ease. In some way he seems to blame himself for the situation. He cancelled our next business appointment and wrote that he wasn't sure how to proceed our business relationship. He had to think some time to decide about that.
After that I wrote an email that we should behave like grown-up people and that things like just that can happen. We met again twice, I suppose not coincidentally. He knows when I arrive/leave his company. The first time he only smiled shyly when talking to a person next to me. The other time I asked him if he knew now how to proceed. He told me he needs much more time to think. He was quite nervous and uncomfortable but looked me in the eyes and finally smiled.
After that I began to realize he could have aspergers. I analyzed his behavior during our private meeting and everything afterwards. His confusion in my presence is so intense now, so untypical for an NT. A neurotypical who rejects a woman must not be nervous afterwards. I strongly suppose he could have a mild asperger syndrome. His interests and the kind of work he does support my supposition.
Now my questions:
A) I know now that I did everything wrong with him but do you think it is possible that he will overcome the situation and continue our work? I feel he kind of likes me, despite his statement to have no romantic interest in me.
B) Imagine he comes to a positive solution and decides to continue our work together. The work atmosphere before our private meeting was definitely very pleasant and he felt comfortable with me, despite some amount of nervousness. Do you think he could like me as a real friend after some time? Or even like me more than as a friend after some time has gone by?
I know you aspies are different and nobody can give me a definite "forecast". But could you please state your opinion or give me some advice how not to hurt or confuse him any more.
I am thankful for every advice or opinion/statement.
Best, Crisscross
Recently I became aquainted with a man in his mid thirties, appearing quite normal, maybe behaving a little bit awkward. We usually meet in a business context and regularly work together two hours face-to-face, with no other people in the room.
He used to be very nervous when we were together but during our work the nervousness eased every time. But the next time we met he was nervous again. Not realizing that he could be an aspie I thought the nervousness could be because he liked me as a woman. It happens that I attract men although i do not intend that.
He is a handsome and smart guy and I kind of developed a pretty huge crush on him. The feeling went stronger every time I met him. We had pretty much eye contact together and smiled or laughed very often. So we had a really pleasant time together. After a few meetings I decided to ask him to meet me privately. I suggested to visit a museum together.
The moment I asked him he seemed startled, became nervous and uncomfortable. I sensed that he felt not longer good again. But we made an appointment, met at the museum and had two drinks afterwards. During the afternoon I realized that he didn't ask questions about me and my background. I had to do most of the conversation and the topic finding. He answered my questions, but made almost no approach to keep the conversation running further.
I felt not good at this day (headache) and missed some opportunities to deepen interesting topics with further questions. Despite this there were some beautiful moments, I felt we had somehow the same wavelength. But in the end his "not making much conversation" destroyed my confidence and the next day my feelings for him were terribly confused and desperated.
Still not realizing he could have aspergers I wrote him a message that I like him very much, have strong emotions for him and think a lot of him. To make things worse, I told him that I am in a relationship and therefore are confused about everything.
I knew at this moment that the message was wrong but I couldn't help myself with something different. I asked him for his feelings, telling him that I only pretended to have no romantic interest in him as I stated that I was looking for an approach to friendship. He answered that there were no romantic interest on his part. He apologized to have caused such distress to me and didn't intend to make me feel ill at ease. In some way he seems to blame himself for the situation. He cancelled our next business appointment and wrote that he wasn't sure how to proceed our business relationship. He had to think some time to decide about that.
After that I wrote an email that we should behave like grown-up people and that things like just that can happen. We met again twice, I suppose not coincidentally. He knows when I arrive/leave his company. The first time he only smiled shyly when talking to a person next to me. The other time I asked him if he knew now how to proceed. He told me he needs much more time to think. He was quite nervous and uncomfortable but looked me in the eyes and finally smiled.
After that I began to realize he could have aspergers. I analyzed his behavior during our private meeting and everything afterwards. His confusion in my presence is so intense now, so untypical for an NT. A neurotypical who rejects a woman must not be nervous afterwards. I strongly suppose he could have a mild asperger syndrome. His interests and the kind of work he does support my supposition.
Now my questions:
A) I know now that I did everything wrong with him but do you think it is possible that he will overcome the situation and continue our work? I feel he kind of likes me, despite his statement to have no romantic interest in me.
B) Imagine he comes to a positive solution and decides to continue our work together. The work atmosphere before our private meeting was definitely very pleasant and he felt comfortable with me, despite some amount of nervousness. Do you think he could like me as a real friend after some time? Or even like me more than as a friend after some time has gone by?
I know you aspies are different and nobody can give me a definite "forecast". But could you please state your opinion or give me some advice how not to hurt or confuse him any more.
I am thankful for every advice or opinion/statement.
Best, Crisscross
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