These suicide thoughts happen when i'm on my
Concerta.
Depression can be a side effect of stimulant medications like Concerta.
It may sound weird, but it really happens. I think it is usually related to feeling slowed down and tired/empty zombified by the medication (this is what happens to me -- I am the opposite of you, it does not give me energy at all, only takes it away), but everyone reacts to medication differently.
Tell your doctor how your Concerta seems to cause/worsen your feelings of depression. Maybe you need to take a lower dose of it -- or maybe it would help to switch to a different medication.
[Edit:] Now I've read through the whole thread I see you/your mom already talked to your psychiatrist and I'm glad something is being done to sort this part out
My grandmother keeps thinking that i'm aggravating her when all i'm doing is stimming.
I am guessing that your stimming is distracting or annoying to her in some way.
It really sucks that she doesn't understand you aren't being distracting/annoying on purpose -- that you are just sef-regulating.
Would it be possible to ask your grandma if she could tell you nicely when your stimming is bothering her -- then would you be able to try to go to another room, or to move to part of the room where she can't see you stim?
This would show her that you do care about her feelings and aren't doing it on purpose, and maybe she would start to understand?
Ideally you wouldn't have to leave the room at all, or you and your grandma could take turns with leaving the room...but your grandma would have to understand your stimming first.
My father thinks the reason that i'm depressed is that I don't have enough structure when the real reason is because all people are doing is judging me about my behavior all the time. Whenever I mention to my father that I want to commit suicide, he doesn't take it seriously and thinks that i'm just being silly.
I'm sorry he doesn't listen/understand, that is awful.
Is there anybody else you can talk to?
Do you have a counsellor? If you don't have a counsellor, would you want one? If you might like to talk to a counsellor, could you ask your doctor to refer you to someone?
Counselling is not for everyone, but with good counsellors I have found it helpful. Sometimes they can even advocate for you and help talk to your family so that your family can understand you better.
My parents think that whenever I kiss my two cuties and call them Cutie and Pinny The Pooh, that i'm bothering them, which is not true at all. Can you please give me advice?
My advice is to directly ask your little brother and sister if they are okay with you kissing them and calling them "Cutie" and "Pinny the Pooh" -- my suggestion is to ask them "How do you feel about being kissed and called [cutie/pinny the pooh]?"
If they say they don't like it, then ask them if there is some other affection they would be okay with. (For example maybe they could pick their own nicknames, or maybe they would like hugs or high fives instead of kisses?)
If your brother and sister say they are okay with your kisses and nicknames, then you could tell your parents you asked and have the "okay" from them.
