LostInSilentHill
Terrible Gaurdian Angel
I thought I was broken honestly, I was abused as a child and I thought that maybe I had been broken by it. Mental illness was soon tossed around by doctors but nothing ever seemed to fit right. It just made me feel more broken, not fitting into any of the diagnoses I was given. I wasn't hitting the 'milestones' that my friends were and I didn't seem to be improving either.
As a child, my behaviour didn't seem wrong to me. It wasn't until I was in high school that I realised my behaviour was abnormal from everyone else's.
I was bullied terribly, and it seemed like all through my youth, people hated me for no reason. It wasn't till I looked at my old school reports that I saw how I acted and how uncomfortable it made the other kids.
My behaviour was considered a side-effect of the abuse, so it never seemed to be properly dealt with. I see that my mother was told that I would improve with time, but without proper 'people training' I never really did. I just learned to hide certain things from others.
Until I was first suspected of having autism a few years ago, I was very depressed and unsure how I could improve. Now that I know about it, I see that I was never broken, just made a bit differently. It has helped tremendously with moving forward in life.
It really shows how important early diagnoses is.
As a child, my behaviour didn't seem wrong to me. It wasn't until I was in high school that I realised my behaviour was abnormal from everyone else's.
I was bullied terribly, and it seemed like all through my youth, people hated me for no reason. It wasn't till I looked at my old school reports that I saw how I acted and how uncomfortable it made the other kids.
My behaviour was considered a side-effect of the abuse, so it never seemed to be properly dealt with. I see that my mother was told that I would improve with time, but without proper 'people training' I never really did. I just learned to hide certain things from others.
Until I was first suspected of having autism a few years ago, I was very depressed and unsure how I could improve. Now that I know about it, I see that I was never broken, just made a bit differently. It has helped tremendously with moving forward in life.
It really shows how important early diagnoses is.