Odd Duck 1357
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Just saw a post about NTs feeling traumatized in a relationship with an Aspie. The article describing the relationship trauma might have been written by my spouse, who is often convinced he "bought a lemon" when he fell in love with me. He also thinks I use my AS diagnosis as an excuse to get a free pass on responsibility for temper tantrums, social gaffes and so on.
My mother thought she bought lemons too when she found motherhood so hard, she put my sister and me in an orphanage- so this lemon thing just pisses me off.
My husband feels held back by a spouse who is not a true partner; I point out that a "normal" person could not keep up with him. I feel like it would take Superwoman to please him, much less an Aspie! But his idea that pretty much everything is my fault is insulting because, heaven knows, I try. It's like I'm the dairy maid who married the lord of the manor- from another planet!
Back to the toxic relationship thing, I don't think NTs acknowledge the pressure Aspies are under to not merely perform in a critical world but to please someone who is too hurt by the unfairness of it all to understand the kind of pressure we Aspies operate under. Or the anxiety we feel daily when we internalize the criticism and feel we are not and cannot be good enough.
Does anyone else think this is rather unfair? I mean, NTs have the whole damn world. Every fringe group is pushing for acceptance and compassion. Why not us? Because we don't have skin of a strange color or speak with a foreign accent or worship some bizarre deity, because our only difference is our brain itself? I feel like I'd have more friends and acceptance in this world if I were a Scientologist transgendered biracial handicapped female militia member than having a brain with different wiring!
My mother thought she bought lemons too when she found motherhood so hard, she put my sister and me in an orphanage- so this lemon thing just pisses me off.
My husband feels held back by a spouse who is not a true partner; I point out that a "normal" person could not keep up with him. I feel like it would take Superwoman to please him, much less an Aspie! But his idea that pretty much everything is my fault is insulting because, heaven knows, I try. It's like I'm the dairy maid who married the lord of the manor- from another planet!
Back to the toxic relationship thing, I don't think NTs acknowledge the pressure Aspies are under to not merely perform in a critical world but to please someone who is too hurt by the unfairness of it all to understand the kind of pressure we Aspies operate under. Or the anxiety we feel daily when we internalize the criticism and feel we are not and cannot be good enough.
Does anyone else think this is rather unfair? I mean, NTs have the whole damn world. Every fringe group is pushing for acceptance and compassion. Why not us? Because we don't have skin of a strange color or speak with a foreign accent or worship some bizarre deity, because our only difference is our brain itself? I feel like I'd have more friends and acceptance in this world if I were a Scientologist transgendered biracial handicapped female militia member than having a brain with different wiring!