Ocarina
Well-Known Member
Hello
I'm just attempting to unravell myself from yet another failed relationship and trying to undo the patterns that have led to this place I've stumbled upon codependency.
I'm an AS woman late 40s and for my entire life I've been working on how to get others to like me, how to fit in and particularly in intimate relationships I find myself losing myself in a quest to maintain the equanimity of the relationship. It's fine for a while until resentment builds up - I find confrontation almost unbearable and tend to just walk when it gets too difficult.
"For codependents, being open and honest in close relationships may be difficult. Instead of being assertive, initiating action, and meeting your own needs, you hide your truth, react, and feel responsible for others. You become anxious and try to manage, control, and manipulate, often by pleasing or giving advice. Some codependents turn themselves into pretzels trying to accommodate others, because they feel too guilty to say “No.”
Codependency might be with one person or everyone. It could be with your partner, or with a child, parent, or sibling. Contrary to what you might think, not all codependents are caretakers or are even in a relationship. Codependents have all different personalities, and symptoms vary in type and severity among them. There are codependents who seek closeness, while others avoid it. Some are addicts, bullies, selfish, and needy, or may appear independent and confident, but they control, or are controlled by, a personal relationship or their addiction. Sometimes that relationship is with an addict or parent or partner who is a narcissist. A relationship marked by addiction or abuse is a sign of codependency. But not all codependent relationships are abusive. "
Strikes me as a trait that isn't often associated with AS tendencies although maybe AS women are more prone but I'm not sure - anyone else experienced anything similar?
I'm just attempting to unravell myself from yet another failed relationship and trying to undo the patterns that have led to this place I've stumbled upon codependency.
I'm an AS woman late 40s and for my entire life I've been working on how to get others to like me, how to fit in and particularly in intimate relationships I find myself losing myself in a quest to maintain the equanimity of the relationship. It's fine for a while until resentment builds up - I find confrontation almost unbearable and tend to just walk when it gets too difficult.
"For codependents, being open and honest in close relationships may be difficult. Instead of being assertive, initiating action, and meeting your own needs, you hide your truth, react, and feel responsible for others. You become anxious and try to manage, control, and manipulate, often by pleasing or giving advice. Some codependents turn themselves into pretzels trying to accommodate others, because they feel too guilty to say “No.”
Codependency might be with one person or everyone. It could be with your partner, or with a child, parent, or sibling. Contrary to what you might think, not all codependents are caretakers or are even in a relationship. Codependents have all different personalities, and symptoms vary in type and severity among them. There are codependents who seek closeness, while others avoid it. Some are addicts, bullies, selfish, and needy, or may appear independent and confident, but they control, or are controlled by, a personal relationship or their addiction. Sometimes that relationship is with an addict or parent or partner who is a narcissist. A relationship marked by addiction or abuse is a sign of codependency. But not all codependent relationships are abusive. "
Strikes me as a trait that isn't often associated with AS tendencies although maybe AS women are more prone but I'm not sure - anyone else experienced anything similar?