I found that at first I was quite elated. I wasn't a lone nutcase anymore, and I had a name for why I was always different. At first it was wholly positive.
Then I started feeling uncomfortable with a label, and applying one with such weight to myself felt really weird.
Then as I read more, and saw how society treats autistic people I got really pissed off. It's unfair and moronic for the world to label and marginalise people who could make amazing contributions to life.
Next, and since I am self diagnosed, and since there is a small chunk of my brain that's an absolute dick head, I then experienced a lot of thoughts like "well maybe you're not anyway", "how do you know for sure?"
I've just been going through a stage where I've been trying to drop a lot of the things I do to "pass". This is the "screw you guys, my people are on the internet" stage.
These have been distinct, in that the came up and faded, but they now all exist to a lesser degree.
What comes next I wonder?
Then I started feeling uncomfortable with a label, and applying one with such weight to myself felt really weird.
Then as I read more, and saw how society treats autistic people I got really pissed off. It's unfair and moronic for the world to label and marginalise people who could make amazing contributions to life.
Next, and since I am self diagnosed, and since there is a small chunk of my brain that's an absolute dick head, I then experienced a lot of thoughts like "well maybe you're not anyway", "how do you know for sure?"
I've just been going through a stage where I've been trying to drop a lot of the things I do to "pass". This is the "screw you guys, my people are on the internet" stage.
These have been distinct, in that the came up and faded, but they now all exist to a lesser degree.
What comes next I wonder?